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OMg I've become so fucking un motivated since I got back from my trip. I think its the total fear of this project. Its a big commitment of everything and I just want to run away, or at least bury my head and hope it all just goes away. speaking of which I really need to address the realtor bullshit. I know its stuck in the court system and is going to surface at some point.

I did the wednesday night group ride last night. I was glad I did although my legs are still really sore from the run on monday. I had called Jerry but he didn't call back, so i fugured he was having to work late and coldnt do it. I turned up and little Pauly was there. Hes obviously been working on his road cycling and was hanging in the front. A few hundred yards into the ride and I see Jerry! He kinda let things slide the last few weeks too, so we both struggled along best we could. I bailed later on and I turned off after about 30 miles. No point in killing myself trying to keep up. Its amazing that I could do that ride a few months ago and now it seems so hard. Keep at it and i'll be back on top soon. I find the working out does give me motivation to do other things in my life...it just hasnt kicked in yet!

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Went and swam at lunch time today. Really good swim, nice to feel that coming back. Hamstrings are still really sore. I was hoping to mountain bike tomorrow, but it looks like the crank bolts wont be here until next week. Maybe I can run tomorrow instead. As I got out of the pool this woman was staring at me. I nodded to her and she beckoned me over. "I hope you dont mind me saying this but has anyone ever told you you look like richard Gere" "umm yeah once or twice, thanks though!"

The architect is pissing me off. He keeps making so many mistakes. I think he's more the big picture kind of person, which is bad, one simple slip up and its very easy to build something to a point only to find out something else isnt going to work without it costing a lot of money. I dont feel I should be responsible for pointing out every mistake he makes.