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rogerdogerFinally R is going back to school. After coming back from Sri lanka she still had two weeks of holiday. Ive hated it. She wont let me use power tools because,,,aww the noise I just cant stand it, or she wants to do things together. Yes I know thats not unresonable but Im so bored with her most of the time. She has no interests outside of school related things. Anything I want to talk about she goes blank and wants every tiny detail explained, but then still never gets it. Watching TV has become a real pain. Im not joking every 5 minutes its "what did he say?" "why did they do that" or "do you think she really did that?" It drives me crazy, because if i answer then I lose the plot of what is going on too. So Ive started this weird just not answering her. Youd think a normal person would get the message, but she still fucking keeps on asking me things! Asks me something, silence, asks me something else, silence, asks me again, silence. Dont you fucking get it!! shut the fuck up or more to the point, pay attention so you can understand it yourself. Funny we nearly got into an argument today about a book I bought. I showed to her and was just like 'hey look at this I picked up". It was a book about the Daintree, a national parks area just north of us that we have been to a few times. The book says on the front, The Daintree, its a small book with just some information about the trees and animals of the Daintree. i hand it to her, "oh whats it about" she says. "open it and have a look", I say. "well cant you just tell me?" "if you open it you will find out" "but you could just tell me" this went on for a few minutes. She just totally refused to look in the book. It became more a power thing than anything, and I think its a prime example of how she wont take control of so much in her life. Why do it yourself when you can act all helpless and get others to do things for you. interestingly she is also one of those people who is so about womens rights and equality. sheesh.
I think she has fucked our dogs up. Marley has slowly become more and more anxious about everything..oh right just like R. R is scared of everything. She saw some cars parked in the parking lot of the dog park area and started freaking out, "oh no there will be dogs what should we do? should we turn back now?" like for fuck sake. I got to the park and there was nothing, it was fine and the dogs had a great time. Left to herself Ive heard from others that have dogs and walk where we walk that she freaks out when she sees someone else with a dog coming. So she has transfered all her anxiaty onto our dogs, Im sure of it. Now Marely has become so fearful that he has started to try harder to dominate Bruce and started trying to take his food. bruce although biger now and able to push Marley around is a big softy and has also become anxious so he runs away when marely goes for his food. Now Bruce has stopped eating for the last few days. His tail is down between his legs and he is obviously nervous of where Marely is. We've finaly figured out if we feed Marely first then put him in his pen, we can feed Bruce and he feels comfortable enough to eat, but its added another level of care and babying.
I will do anything to not write. I often day dream while walking or running about a part of my life that would sound so good to get down on paper. but I find every reason not to write. usually its the addiction of FB, of getting into pointless discussions with morons about politics both local and global. Or im distracted with fights against council or issues with council or now the local police. If there is anything I really want to do this year, its to actually start writing. Just get something down anything! worry about the gramatics of it later.
I think she has fucked our dogs up. Marley has slowly become more and more anxious about everything..oh right just like R. R is scared of everything. She saw some cars parked in the parking lot of the dog park area and started freaking out, "oh no there will be dogs what should we do? should we turn back now?" like for fuck sake. I got to the park and there was nothing, it was fine and the dogs had a great time. Left to herself Ive heard from others that have dogs and walk where we walk that she freaks out when she sees someone else with a dog coming. So she has transfered all her anxiaty onto our dogs, Im sure of it. Now Marely has become so fearful that he has started to try harder to dominate Bruce and started trying to take his food. bruce although biger now and able to push Marley around is a big softy and has also become anxious so he runs away when marely goes for his food. Now Bruce has stopped eating for the last few days. His tail is down between his legs and he is obviously nervous of where Marely is. We've finaly figured out if we feed Marely first then put him in his pen, we can feed Bruce and he feels comfortable enough to eat, but its added another level of care and babying.
I will do anything to not write. I often day dream while walking or running about a part of my life that would sound so good to get down on paper. but I find every reason not to write. usually its the addiction of FB, of getting into pointless discussions with morons about politics both local and global. Or im distracted with fights against council or issues with council or now the local police. If there is anything I really want to do this year, its to actually start writing. Just get something down anything! worry about the gramatics of it later.
